New Year...New Beginning

Have you ever felt like you’re floating in the air? Like you felt like there’s nowhere to go and you think about so many things endlessly that you would only feel so frustrated in the end because you end up thinking all the worst. That’s what happened to me a month ago…been shocked with the sudden turned of events in my life. So, what I’m afraid of already happened…so suddenly…so fast! I know I should have been prepared for it coz I saw it’s really coming. But I guess when you hold things back because you’ve been so attached to it, no matter how prepared you are…you will still feel frustrated and sad when it’s really time to let go. So I guess there is really no preparing for letting go of things because emotions can be unpredictable most of the time…when it flows, it flows! It’s just a matter of how we accept things…and for me, I just thought about it that maybe, it’s really time for a CHANGE!

One morning, I woke up not hurrying for work anymore and there’s no report that I have to do and email afterwards. Suddenly, my eyes were opened in the real world….I say real world because cyberspace for me is a world where all the lies could be made and everybody could pretend. I was actually just got back to where I came from eight years ago…Yes; I’ve work in the café for eight years…2 years with the first one and 6 years with the last. Wow! I can’t imagine my world revolves in the cyberspace that long…and like anybody else, I have my share of being fooled…been in love (well maybe I just thought I was! Lol) and cried for multiple reasons. Well if there’s one thing I should be thankful for is that, I’ve gained many friends through chatting even though I thought that I couldn’t find any true people here. I know I was wrong for thinking that way because I have found pure friendships with them and shared some most memorable events in my life. I couldn’t even believe friendship could be made even with people who are miles apart from each other. Well one thing I have realized, with true people…distance makes no matter if the words are true and the emotions are true. There’s no difference, it’s just “the distance”… For now, I am saying goodbye to the cyber world but not with my cyber friends…well I can see some of them if I misses them. Lol! And I can text those who are miles away…haha!

So right now, I couldn’t say that things are really okay with me because honestly, it is still not. I am still floating in the air….no idea where I could be and what should I be doing next. But probably I should be optimistic this time…that things are changing and going for the better! I am not quite ready for a new phase but I should positively look forward to it. New Year, new phase….new beginning...new life! Happy new year everybody!