Beyond Thinking

It’s something to work for Something to nourish and adore Something that needs two hearts or more Something everyone wish to have Something you can hold on to and be glad. During difficult times It’s not something you can buy in store But something you always wanted to restore It’s something free, something priceless Something you’ll fight for before anything else. It’s something to treasure forever Something won’t make you say never Something to be just you Something not to conceal and be true It’s something to comfort when you’re blue. It’s a special bond despite differences Something shared by all races It’s something called “friendship” a gift from above Once you have this you knew you’re blessed It’s something far from being distressed.

When all was said than done You can never take it back Can never be undone. Tongue sharply made life a knife Can melt a heart Though sometimes end a life. Mind full of thoughts A heart full of desires While just kept can never be inspire. Nice words better left unspoken If cannot put in deed And just let someone heartbroken. Thoughtful mind, good intentions All good things are meaningless When all was just said than done.

Finally I have awaken That long dream I had mistaken Someone was there for me from nowhere Promise a love that seems forever. Finally I have awaken I’ve dream too much I was fascinated Someone made me believe made me fall Fallen too deep yet the chance was small. Finally I have awaken Made me believe then I was forsaken I have been fooled just been a toy My heart is in pain fully destroyed. Finally my eyes have opened That dream seems so real it was deceiving Perhaps I’ve found the one that worth loving Such an innocent fool I’ve come believing. Finally my long dream was over Surely will take me so long to recover Indeed not a wonderful dream but a nightmare Drives me insane and put my heart to a vast scare.

Wish I could make you happy But not because I look so silly Wish I could make you smile Make all the days worthwhile. Wish I could fill the emptiness That causes all your sadness Wish I could take away the pain Ease your heart and sanity remain. Wish I could be the one you miss each day The one you always wanted to stay Wish I could give you all the love The love you always want to have. Wish I could make all these dreams come true Though it’s clearly impossible to do I couldn’t do best but just wish Pray to God that you’ll always be at ease.

In the world that’s full of madness You suddenly came to ease my sadness You take me out of my shell Where I used to mourn and nothing to tell. I’m a person without dreams and ambition But then you show the way to my destination You’re my savior and protector Somebody that I’ve never had before. You made me smile and laugh again Seems I forget because of so much pain You take all my worries apart Made me secure without fear in my heart. My life has so much fun with you Can’t imagine a day without you You’re just too good and so true I thank God coz he made you. Date written -- July 27, 1999 Dedicated to all my FRIENDS… :)

How will I know why You were never satisfy For all the things I know That made my love show. We’ve been so happy before Walking and laughing by the shore Never imagine it would last But everything happened so fast. I gave you so much love I thought it will be enough But why there’s in your eyes I can see something in disguise. Then suddenly you are gone Wondering what I have done Why you disappear without saying goodbye Left me all alone wanted to die. How will I know now That you’ve love me somehow You don’t even said a word Just left me and ruin my world. How can I tell you my love You really hurt me so bad There’s nothing left for me But a heart full of misery. Date written: 1-21-1999

Oh foolish heart how could you be so cruel to me? Oh foolish heart when will you set me free? When will this craziness end? How will you mend? Oh foolish heart how could you overcome my mind? How can you be so stubborn? My foolish heart when will you stop beating? For a person not worth keeping. Oh foolish heart when will you take a rest? Take me away from all distress Oh foolish heart please listen to me Take me back to where I used to be.

Paano mo hahanapin ang taong wla? Paano mo hihintayin ang hindi naman darating? Paano mo masasabing ika'y nasasabik Gayong siya'y hindi mo pa nakikita? Paano mo mamahalin gayong hindi mo pa nasisilayan? Pag-ibig nga ba'y sadyang ganyan? O baka naman ang tao'y sadyang bulag lamang? Akala ay pag-ibig yun pala'y isang pangarap lamang.

You’re just a toy Expect to be dump. You’re just like dirt Expect to be avoided. You’re just a shock absorber Expect to be left behind. You don’t mean anything Expect the worst thing. You’re not loved at all It’s your fault if you fall.

What could be more painful than heartbreak? What could be more stupid than letting go of someone you never had? Should I be glad coz you made me fall? Should I be thankful coz i’ve felt this after all? I hate myself for letting this happened I never imagine I’ll get through this… I hate being foolish & stupid… Now, tell me how to mend a broken heart???

Walk away like nobody seems to care Walk away but don’t think it’s unfair Stop holding on, it’s more hurtful to go on So walk away though it’s breaking your heart. Walk away don’t ever look back Bear the pain, don’t ever come back Walk away dear stupid heart Walk away just ripped apart. Walk away just walk away Though you’ll never know what to get through along the way Even though forgetting will be the hardest thing to do But saving you from the deepest well you get into. So walk away coz it’s the best thing to do… Walk away so far away….

Days passed without the glimpse of you Wondering how you’ve been or do I missed you I don’t exactly know what I’m feeling Sometimes thinking the absence could be helping. Am I still longing or just still dreaming The insanity that could be forbidding Trying to drain my thoughts of your existence Wanted to let go off the feeling that so intense. I should never love you this way Though my heart could not paved away I still can’t believe it could happened But the pain is real and will take time to mend.

My heart is in trouble It’s going to explode any minute It’s hard to explain what I’m feeling I don’t even know where it’s leading. It’s more than stupidity Much even more than craziness This is all beyond my limit I’m more than hurting I have to admit. My mind is disrupting too much thinking It’s overflowing, nearly breaking I don’t want to think anymore There’ll be nothing in store.